78 and as a child i was greatly connected, that is until i suppose ketu and lilith started having a ball in my 12th...
i am rebuilding my life now, its been disastrous! i live through it by realizing and accepting that thisis a perfect storm. i assume i have Pleiadien connection for numerous reasons, and have been breaking through the Indigo growing-pains, and been "flame throwing" and attempting to build my 'crystal-castles' in the right and wrong ways
i have clairvoyant periods, and recently begin making/creating something(write, paint, sculpt with metal, roseBud rosaries:-), go into spontaneous mantras, or will often just leave my house walking or leave for no-where in-particular, but for the most out-standing reasons i find.
the dreams i have which seem indicative, but i cant remember so well, are colored with deep purple and black.
recently i felt i was able to remember/saw some of what i am to do, i have 22 life-path as well, and in this particular dream saw myself glowing white, above the earth, laying backwards with my the upper half of my body elevated. there was a large beam of "light" being streamed into my lower abdomen.
before moving across the country with my wife at the time(9years married) i would often have dreams i was on a massive field of green, with a slate-blue sky, i would lean foreward so far standing on this grass, and would then with the sensation of, begin to fall forwards with the curve of the land...snoop dog was there once, he was smoking a blunt, we were moving along together and he would begin to pass me the blunt, and as i would reach for it, he would yank it away and say, "thats whyyy" lol...oh my...i see what this benevolent-bulbous Snoop was saying maybe now. i am very sick/pain and have stopped alll medication besides marijuana, i became sick with an "invisible" auto immune disorder after feeling like something was telling me, that it was going to come and destroy my wife myself, our cats and home, it was on its way atm...then, the sensation that it, was playing prank on me, and will not ever come, maybe?!?
psychosis it seemed then for many months, i was despondent and speechless, agoraphobia then in a major way and i had never been before. once this mental-play lifted, thats when the pain games began, and i am not having much fun here.
ive been living isolated, with no transportation neighbors or "friends", my family is exhausted with me and i never see them either besides for rides to the local grocery-store. ive been sitting in this big ol empty house now alone for 1 year, and 2 years prior in this place, in bed in pain the entire freaking time.
on febuary 14 at around 230am, i began to "awake", i figured i was a goner but since then and attaining my light i have began to get better, and its incredible but still.