I haven't been able to make anything really happen yet, I had a nervous breakdown, and I'm trying to put myself back together. I feel like i'm being forced to live in stasis to make up for those lack of years of childhood, but it's all wrong in a similar way that it was wrong before. Like what are we supposed to do at this age? All the foundations that our parents relied on for the societal program are crumbling. That go to college get a job get married have kids thing and work hard and you'll have enough doesn't WORK anymore.
I think the only thing that makes sense is to try to keep a focus and energy rolling on something that you know you want. Like don't do anything unless you're passionate about it, or you know WHY you're doing it. You gotta think about who you are as a person and what your values are. What do you need in life, what do you like? Because if you don't do that, there's no way to get to any positive energy at all.
I don't feel like i'm succeeding yet, but i've been dragging myself out of a very dark place based on that idea of passion and truth, with some result. it's like a bunch of stuff bouncing around on a spinning disc, that hasn't quite gotten into regular orbits yet. just gotta keep hopping on that carousel.... O_O