[font=Century Gothic]When I stayed with them, I liked to listen to their feelings, thoughts, and I could feel their feelings. Not too long, I started talking like them, behaving like them, and thinking like them. I couldn’t recognize these thoughts are theirs or mine due to agreeing with their ideas.[/font]
[font=Century Gothic]When I stayed in a place where is full of people, I couldn’t breath and felt overwhelmed, dizzy, headache. When I stay away from them, alone, I felt pretty depressed.[/font]
[font=Century Gothic]This ambivalence induced my addiction to coffee and sweet drinks. When I feel stressed, depressed, or lonely, I will go for a cup of coffee or sweet drink immediately even though I’ve already drunk it over two times on that day. I know too much coffee or too many sweet drinks is bad for my health, but I just can’t resist it. I feel I need them to support my life and to compensate for the unpleasant feelings.[/font]
[font=Century Gothic]It’s a very vicious circle, I know. The depression, loneliness, exhausted feeling keep appearing, then I just can’t stop drinking....just keep drinking….[/font]
[font=Century Gothic]What’s wrong with me? Can’t I be happier without these harmful things in this world?
How can I deal with such problem???[/font]