PennyStarLight wrote:[color=#008000:iud7j91c][font=Verdana][FONT=comic sans ms][b:iud7j91c]I don't know if I have mental depression. If I do, it's really weird coz the unhappiness has started since I had memories. It goes with me every day.[/b:iud7j91c][/font][/FONT]
[font=Verdana][FONT=comic sans ms][b:iud7j91c]Apparently, just like normal people, I can perform well on many things and work hard on everything. But there are some problems, I can't stay with people for a long time coz it makes me confused my thoughts, feelings, emotions with theirs.I am overwhelmed.[/b:iud7j91c][/font][/FONT]
[font=Verdana][FONT=comic sans ms][b:iud7j91c]So, I decide to escape from them sometimes. But when I did that, I started to feel very very depressed and can't feel anything about outside world.[/b:iud7j91c][/font][/FONT]
[font=Verdana][FONT=comic sans ms][b:iud7j91c]It's full of ambivalence and cruelness.
I don't know why I'n here.Since I was a child,I've known I don't belong here.[/b:iud7j91c][/font][/FONT]
[font=Verdana][FONT=comic sans ms][b:iud7j91c]I'm still thinking about and trying to find a solution, in a positive way, but still working.[/b:iud7j91c][/font][/FONT][/color:iud7j91c]
[color=#4E4E54:iud7j91c][font=Verdana][b:iud7j91c][FONT=comic sans ms]COULD U GIVE ME SOME SUGGESTIONS??[/color:iud7j91c][/font][/b:iud7j91c][/FONT]
Well, guess what. You're here already, and you most likely won't go anywhere else until you find/achieve whatever it is you need to find here on earth.
I have my issues with people. Like you said, nothing but relentless cruelty and people projecting their insecurities onto me.Pretty much nothing else, unless I make the effort to make it positive. But why do I take it so personally?Well, simple, there's an insecurity within me that is causing me to personalize things that people say about me.Those people have some sort of "internal pain" or insecurity, and the only way they know how to cope with it is by putting others down. Although, you should not develop the "victim syndrome"...even if every day it seems like everyone is picking at you. That mentality, itself, is harming, and not beneficial to us, at all.
If anyone comes at you wrong, just tell em to "f*ck off"...keep it moving, and don't hold any long discussions about your problems with them...I've tried that. They will still hate on you. Just focus on small term goals, if any, and remind yourself that it's not "you" they are angry at, it's themselves.But even so, none of it should bother you. This is just how life is, for some people...you just have to learn to not personalize anything they say.Easier said, than done, of course.I'm still trying to learn.Maybe all of this is to help you build passion for whatever you choose to pursue in the future.Sooner or later, the part of you that complains about the way life is, will die.(figuratively speaking)
I honestly ask myself "when is it enough?"...i guess the answer to that question varies. Sorry, I guess I subconsciously vented on your thread while attempting help you at the same time.