Don't give up hope Sandradee14, life has much in store for you:)
One day you are going to look back at this time and wish, you were back here.
"People are treating me so well. I am whole with myself. I love being who I am, I am loved. Everything is turning out for my highest good. I am safe. I am blessed to be on this earth. "- I use this everyday and look where it has got me! I am sexy and I know it. (You should know you are sexy too:P)
I just saw this video today and it's catylized my true awakening. Abraham Hicks also can help with relationships but this is the most clarification I have come across so far. I hope this can help.
I give up frequently - or at least relinquish control. Sometimes I hope, pray, wish... but in the end, it has been my great pleasure to follow the ebb and flow of Love. Not all experiences have been terribly pleasant. In fact, many have been gut-wrenching, tortuous, and downright painful. But with each one, my capacity grows.
I have the ability to Love now unlike how I ever thought possible. If I had completely given up - and been closed off to Love, I never would have had those experiences. I would have stagnated.
Is my Love life perfect? Not even close. In fact - it's a bonafide mess. BUT, I still Love.
Sounds like they wanted you to learn self-worth in your self, and not in another person.
yes, i realized this as well.. not to say i haven't met and connected with anyone.. i have but they appear more as 'teacher' and definitely feel like kindred spirits to me.. one of them is an opera singer who is a powerful being of light.. every time i run into him, he is always seen wearing white from head to toe.. he has encouraged me to go up to santa monica with him and get involve in some play acting and such.. i was not financially able to do so but now i have a little money so i'll take the train to santa monica.. the other i just recently met is an energy practitioner whose originally from peru.. some powerful synchronicities brought us together... i had recently checked out a couple of video documentaries on the inca empire to learn more about peru's history and the famed machu picchu. then, i met this woman from a bookstore who happens to be from peru.. i went on telling her about my fascination with peru and a particular wind instrument i like.. she happens to know what i was talking about and more synchronicities kept occurring where i told her about a musician named gheorghe zamfir and the song, 'the lonely shepherd' being played with the pan flute by him.. the song brought me to tears.. she so happens to own his cd that includes the song..