I think our best is all any of us can do! Our best fluctuates with the circumstances also.I have a long road ahead of me and I want to be able to do my best in the travels that I feel are coming at me.
I've felt this way throughout my life...mostly so in the past few years.
I am finding also that the best thing I've done in all of it is to let go of the 'perfection' concept/game with myself and others. I am learning as much with my mistakes as in my successes.
It used to frustrate me if I did not understand something. At times I've spoken up, and others just thought about it and looked to myself...but...everyone is on a different path...no two are the same as I see it. This is ok. People are on different levels (by different...not good or bad...higher or lower...just different).
As tough as it may seem at times, try not to compare where you are at with others. Try not to take offense if something rubs you the wrong way (I am speaking from experience...something I've had to learn..probably will always be learning...) It is a part of the journey to open up to all perspectives to a certain extent.
You may either know or something will be an 'ah ha' moment...and there is synchronicity...
What interests you now? What would you like to learn about most? What calls to you? When I'm in a mood of "Not sure...I just want to know it all" I pick something that I might have been avoiding because maybe I disagree with it, maybe it really doesn't interest me, or something that I think I know a lot about so I am going to dig deeper on it.
Nice to meet you!
To pick one thing right now that I need an answer to is.... Do I have some ability or am I truly just one of the ordinary that are here to help ground my spouse and children. What are my abilities in this life time?