sentienne wrote: Haroeris wrote:
Quite logical, as you once again try more or less the same old things. Which, although connected with beautiful memories as you said, only direct you back to the past. Doors open in the past and now closed only lead you to the one meant to be open for you at this particular time and spiritual evolution stage.
I have been at the place you are now and totally understand. And quite often my Spirit dwells in the Void you experience. It is not a comfortable place, but it is evolution nevertheless. The only compass that will really work and get you in a better place (although maybe not what you expected..) lies inside you and no one else.
When you let the echoes of the past fade a bit, and when you take your mind off the nostalgia, then you may hear your Soul's voice, when the clutter and ambient noise subside. A Void is only created so it can be filled with the New.
What does your Soul's voice say ? Heed the pull that lies deep inside. Believe me, it is there. and in my case it indeed led me to better, wiser and more tranquil places.
See the world with the eyes of a child indeed....but couple this with the wisdom of an Old Soul. Only this is true balance, and not the naivete of Youth. Come full circle...but do walk the perimeter
I want to thank you... again.. for this.. Haroeris...
Chapters remain to be completed in this book - and perhaps some of them are transitional towards the future (progress, perhaps?)
The "void" is uncomfortable.. because it doesn't feel like stasis and it doesn't feel like progress.. it's not turmoil.. it just is.... One of my "concerns" is currently being able to hear the voice inside mySelf (feeling detached).. and listen to that "Soul's voice". It's the most quiet the inside of my head has ever been.....(it's still pretty noisy).
It's not a matter of doing things "on my own terms".. but rather the things I've mentioned are things I've tried that have not worked. I don't know what my terms are (which is why I posed the question to the group).... the standards: meditation, solitude, nature, etc - have not yet worked. The drawing board still exists.
Hey i thank you too, friend. Because you made me realize some invaluable things. Fitting only my personal path of course. That sentence "see the world with the eys of a child"...it made me think some more. Do kids care to meditate, worry about ascension, conspiracy theories, the essence of the divine etc etc ? Duuhh...nope ! What do kids do, furthermore why are kids happy ?
Because children play.
And instantly i recalled an article i had read some time ago, about the transition from puberty to adulthood. There's sadness in this period of our lives, because we subconsciously feel the inner child fading, giving way to the adult inside us. The magic and color and innocence fade away gradually. And the grey world of adulthood creeps in. Yup there's grief in this.
I believe it's similar regarding spirituality. You said "it's not a matter of doing things on my own terms" Quite the contrary i believe. We must or should do things on our own terms. What works for us. Meditation ? Yeah ok, did it and was awesome in the past. But honestly ? I find it boring lol ! It's most probably a wonderful practice and absolutely right for some souls. You know what made me happier, and let all enlightened souls out there scream in terror with my choices...i rediscovered an old strategy video game i used to play before i became "spiritual". And i play it like an obsessed psycho. Yup, it made me a whole lot happier than meditation, sorry gurus ! You know what this made me realize ?
Children are happy...because they have FUN. That's the keyword for me personally i must repeat this. I'm just sharing my experience here not urging anyone to agree with me. Every path is personal and unique and what works for others doesn't work for me. When i started doing things on my own terms..i became happier.
That video game also comes with an editor program you know. So i can tweak the game and have a medieval swordsmen production building to train...friggen space marines ! So i go out and slaughter my hapless virtual opponents who come at me with bows and spells with space pulse rifles...oh frag yeah that's fun lol.
I stopped listening to meditation music or watch binaural videos etc, because....they bored me too. Dirty rock n roll all the way dude !. And i'm happier. Nope, not "spiritual" at all. And since i stopped giving a damn what gurus and self-proclaimed assended and "enlightened" people who brag in forums say...i became happier.
What does my future holds ? Dunno, don't care. And i'm happier. Solitude and nature...yeah ok they're good...but hey i'm a human being too and i need company, i need fun, i need to stop worrying if there are other dimensions or angels or aliens out there and what my guides think of me or want from me...what about what i want from me ? So yeah...is it evolution or de-evolution for me now, do i proceed towards the light or not, are my guides pissed at me because of my choices...well too bad for them lol
If you don't know what your terms are, go create YOUR terms, yours and no one else's. If the things you did in the past don't work anymore, if the old path led to a dead end, go carve out a new one in the jungle of this life. A wise person once said, "traveller, there is no set path, you create it as you go forward".
Life's short my friend...better spend it having some fun !