Childhood Traumas and Their Effects in Today´s Adults

#1
I want to share a little bit of my inner perspective regarding this.
I want to make it clear first that these are my inner beliefs and perceptions and that I respect yours, even if they contradict somehow what I am writing in here. I am open and interested in reading different ideas and perspectives on any situation.

I believe that most of our difficulties in life come from early traumatic experiences which are left unresolved somehow and which secretly haunt us for years; sometimes even for lifetimes...

When we are young children, we are like an open book. We are children which means that we carry high levels of curiosity, openness and appreciation for all what surrounds us.
We are also somehow naive and innocent as children. We are so easily programmable, both for good and for bad.

As children, we have such an easy time to learn new things, anything we want. We have the curiosity, the open mind, the energy for it. However, at the same time, our mind is prone to being programmed in any way.

When a child has been raised within a mature, loving and healthy family and environment, we see healthy individuals as adults. Adults who carry a positive perception of themselves, other people and the world. This also facilitates their positive energy flow and so, an easier or less complicated lifestyle in general.

When we people who seem to constantly struggle in life, people who irradiate a lack of self love, or interior emptiness, are usually people who have had a traumatic childhood experience. When I say traumatic, I do not mean necessarily a life full of supreme tragedies. What I mean is more about different life experiences which leave a subconscious mark in the child. Or in other words: Experiences that do not go away with time. Their energetic print stays with us and may cause us all sorts of blocks in our life.

This process is of course personal to everyone. And 2 people may go through same or similar experiences and develop very different mental responses towards such situations.

But why would a child react emotionally to certain experiences while other experiences which may be on the same level of difficulty are easily overcome by this child? Why is one person triggered by some specific experiences while being "immune" to others?

I have my personal belie regarding this:

I believe the reason is behind our evolutionary process and history... On a Soul level. We were born so many times before this lifetime. We carry a deep and complex history and energetic imprint even when we are babies or children; but which begun way, way before. It has been discovered that babies are not born with a fresh and empty consciousness as it has been thought. Children are also old souls who carry deep old wounds and all sorts of life experiences. The idea that a child is a fresh canvas for the parents to build and shape on, is a bit wrong in my opinion. Children bring their own karmic history, life purpose, identity and personality; many times very different from parents expectations.
I believe that the experiences which trigger us deeply and which generate mental traumas (limiting ideas and thought patterns) in us, are those experiences that happen to us, usually early in our life, which resonate with very similar past experiences that we had; in other lives.

The reason why I believe we go through them again during our childhood or youth is evolution. Every time we repeat the same experiences which have left a mark in us, we have the opportunity to shift our perception and emotional baggage around it. This results in healing and growth which is evolution.

Inner healing is to let go of these old wounds and blocks which keep us under a state of lack of freedom and unhappiness. Feelings and ideas of not being good enough, not being capable or powerful, being guilty or non-deserving are example of common karmic blocks / thought patterns that may be healed through mind reprogramming in order to move on to a happier and free lifestyle.

These are just my beliefs and ideas which I like to share. You are of course always free to disagree.

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#3
Very Nice!
I couldn't be asked to disagree to disagree more. Thank you.

i will add though, your words sparked a moment of clear viewing for me also.
Last year I was able to view the beginning of Soul consciousness dividing itself in order to know itself in the reflections of itself, which are ourselves and everything else in existence.

i see now how one of those facets of Soul experiencing our world could have learned to influence the building blocks of physical life, further dividing itself into more and more reflections of itself that experience the physical form of life.

A single cell individual learns to harmonize with soul again by experiencing it's life (becomes enlightened), taking and giving the way every creature does, in doing so soul consciousness expands and evolves to eventually incarnate as more complex patterns of conscious awareness.

The first lessons of prey meeting ruthless predator, I can totally see how this leaves a mark on the soul frequency, and changes how our bodies become expressed in our offspring. I can see it almost like harmonic chords becoming more and more complex with the passing and rebirth of each generation.

I wonder if this goes as far as to change our perceptual realities. At one time I think most people could be certain that others around them were experiencing the same feelings and similar thoughts, but with these traumas, programming and individualized reactions i dont think anyone can ever be certain without direct and specific communication. i have experienced the terror of knowing the true meaning of another man's words while others present are enthralled with adoration. And perhaps a similar divergence of perceptual connection with when a person meets the love of their life and finds out there is childhood trauma preventing the natural/programmed flow of the relationship... and first dates that end horribly for no apparent reason after one person is triggered by something otherwise normal to others. One person in love and the other frightened of harm no matter what is said or done to express love.

Resentments do hold people down, it's a cruel cycle of shame and shamelessness. If we allow ourselves to be preyed upon we feel shame for being the prey when it is the predator acting shameless, we in turn act shamelessly and doing so take on the shame of the predator as our own until we accept responsibility for our own actions and allow others their own freedom too.

When i got that stuff sorted out then i was able to start breaking negative cycles of behaviour. i'm not perfect (bahahaha) I still get frustrated angry and feel sorry for myself, but I know the mane problem is my pride getting in the way of me being a lion... stubborn and stuff like that,
:boat
i am like a particle floating on a wave traveling across a sea of awareness, looking within, i am everywhere, looking outward i see everything where ever i look. I am the Captain of my own experience, It has always been this way.

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#4
Shaj wrote:
Mon Dec 18, 2017 3:56 pm
Hello.

Leading back core wounds and the struggles resulting out of them even back to previous lifes, is an interesting theory.

If assuming that we're getting confronted with life lessons repeatedly, when we weren't able to accomplish them before, seems to make sense somehow.
At least when believing in souls and multiple lives each soul has to underwent, it is assumable that some unlearned lessons we could carry with us from life to life.
Till we are finally facing and resolving it.
Sounds reasonable to me at least.
That's why i am strongly convinced of taking challenges and facing fears for personal growth.
Otherwise we are standing still in personal growth, not making any big progress.
On the other hand there is a certain limit of new awareness and wisdom to each soul in eachs life.

Nevertheless, interesting topic.

Greetings
I think you are very right.

Also, some souls seem to chose to go through a lot of evolution in one life. For this reason, I think these souls pick challenging life circumstances which will force that growth on the individual. Usually old souls chose this; as the effort, wisdom and strength needed to overcome the intensity of the lessons are necessary. Apparently the rewards are completely worth for this life and for the rest; for the whole Soul.

I believe we chose or fit into our life, person and circumstances based on the energetic imprint we are in our Soul.

I have knowledge of one previous life of mine. Very different times in history, different countries and continents... Still, similar life events somehow and very similar emotions. Also, talents that are related to that life. They also stay with us apparently.

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#5
Dragonsigh wrote:
Mon Dec 18, 2017 5:26 pm
Very Nice!
I couldn't be asked to disagree to disagree more. Thank you.

i will add though, your words sparked a moment of clear viewing for me also.
Last year I was able to view the beginning of Soul consciousness dividing itself in order to know itself in the reflections of itself, which are ourselves and everything else in existence.

i see now how one of those facets of Soul experiencing our world could have learned to influence the building blocks of physical life, further dividing itself into more and more reflections of itself that experience the physical form of life.

A single cell individual learns to harmonize with soul again by experiencing it's life (becomes enlightened), taking and giving the way every creature does, in doing so soul consciousness expands and evolves to eventually incarnate as more complex patterns of conscious awareness.

The first lessons of prey meeting ruthless predator, I can totally see how this leaves a mark on the soul frequency, and changes how our bodies become expressed in our offspring. I can see it almost like harmonic chords becoming more and more complex with the passing and rebirth of each generation.

I wonder if this goes as far as to change our perceptual realities. At one time I think most people could be certain that others around them were experiencing the same feelings and similar thoughts, but with these traumas, programming and individualized reactions i dont think anyone can ever be certain without direct and specific communication. i have experienced the terror of knowing the true meaning of another man's words while others present are enthralled with adoration. And perhaps a similar divergence of perceptual connection with when a person meets the love of their life and finds out there is childhood trauma preventing the natural/programmed flow of the relationship... and first dates that end horribly for no apparent reason after one person is triggered by something otherwise normal to others. One person in love and the other frightened of harm no matter what is said or done to express love.

Resentments do hold people down, it's a cruel cycle of shame and shamelessness. If we allow ourselves to be preyed upon we feel shame for being the prey when it is the predator acting shameless, we in turn act shamelessly and doing so take on the shame of the predator as our own until we accept responsibility for our own actions and allow others their own freedom too.

When i got that stuff sorted out then i was able to start breaking negative cycles of behaviour. i'm not perfect (bahahaha) I still get frustrated angry and feel sorry for myself, but I know the mane problem is my pride getting in the way of me being a lion... stubborn and stuff like that,
I fully agree with everything you have said in here. I dont have much to add really.
Our perceptions are usually individual. I guess some perceptions are collective too; this would allow the world to exist. But we usually perceive our life on an individual level, based on our mental programming. It is usually not about the other person, about what the other said. It is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation. This is directly affected by our mental programming. We base our perceptions on past experiences and memories. Animals do this too. So because of this, a trauma or an unresolved mark, will have an affect on our life. A powerful effect. However, we can consciously reprogram ourselves.

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#6
Lee Bladon's second book Awakening To Wholeness goes into great deal about these childhood traumas and how to dissolve them and why one might act/behave like one does. A Spiritual author so not some lame psychology like: "you only live once and all your thoughts are secretions from the brain"... ;)

https://esotericscience.org/book2.htm it's online for free but one should really buy it, full of good stuff.

His first book Science of Spirituality is a great introduction to esoterics (the knowledge of reality)
That book is heavily influenced by the writings of Henry T Laurency and Theosophy. :)

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#7
Red Violet 3 wrote:
Thu Dec 21, 2017 7:54 pm
Dragonsigh wrote:
Mon Dec 18, 2017 5:26 pm
Very Nice!
I couldn't be asked to disagree to disagree more. Thank you.

i will add though, your words sparked a moment of clear viewing for me also.
Last year I was able to view the beginning of Soul consciousness dividing itself in order to know itself in the reflections of itself, which are ourselves and everything else in existence.

i see now how one of those facets of Soul experiencing our world could have learned to influence the building blocks of physical life, further dividing itself into more and more reflections of itself that experience the physical form of life.

A single cell individual learns to harmonize with soul again by experiencing it's life (becomes enlightened), taking and giving the way every creature does, in doing so soul consciousness expands and evolves to eventually incarnate as more complex patterns of conscious awareness.

The first lessons of prey meeting ruthless predator, I can totally see how this leaves a mark on the soul frequency, and changes how our bodies become expressed in our offspring. I can see it almost like harmonic chords becoming more and more complex with the passing and rebirth of each generation.

I wonder if this goes as far as to change our perceptual realities. At one time I think most people could be certain that others around them were experiencing the same feelings and similar thoughts, but with these traumas, programming and individualized reactions i dont think anyone can ever be certain without direct and specific communication. i have experienced the terror of knowing the true meaning of another man's words while others present are enthralled with adoration. And perhaps a similar divergence of perceptual connection with when a person meets the love of their life and finds out there is childhood trauma preventing the natural/programmed flow of the relationship... and first dates that end horribly for no apparent reason after one person is triggered by something otherwise normal to others. One person in love and the other frightened of harm no matter what is said or done to express love.

Resentments do hold people down, it's a cruel cycle of shame and shamelessness. If we allow ourselves to be preyed upon we feel shame for being the prey when it is the predator acting shameless, we in turn act shamelessly and doing so take on the shame of the predator as our own until we accept responsibility for our own actions and allow others their own freedom too.

When i got that stuff sorted out then i was able to start breaking negative cycles of behaviour. i'm not perfect (bahahaha) I still get frustrated angry and feel sorry for myself, but I know the mane problem is my pride getting in the way of me being a lion... stubborn and stuff like that,
I fully agree with everything you have said in here. I dont have much to add really.
Our perceptions are usually individual. I guess some perceptions are collective too; this would allow the world to exist. But we usually perceive our life on an individual level, based on our mental programming. It is usually not about the other person, about what the other said. It is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation. This is directly affected by our mental programming. We base our perceptions on past experiences and memories. Animals do this too. So because of this, a trauma or an unresolved mark, will have an affect on our life. A powerful effect. However, we can consciously reprogram ourselves.
How lovely, almost feels like returning home from a long journey. Nothing has changed, yet everything is renewed.

i'd like to mention false memories and erased memories/amnesia. These changes of information contained in the brain alter perception too. It's difficult to make successful decisions in life when we lack the knowledge to assemble an accurate picture of the past and present.
If ive lost one bit of my past, how can i know my true relationships and situation in the present moments? however, knowing the full truth about these social pressures can also force an uncomfortable bout of amnesia too.

If i can't see the true present, how can accurate planning occur? Bad decisions and poor choices lead to more traumas, and with that lack of knowledge i wonder that we can be held down to running in endless circles of pain and poor decisions.

I'm very curious now. something happened recently when the eldest in our family died, memories of the past returned.

PerceIt is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation.ption-wise, it was as if a bright light glaring in the eyes went out so one can see what is right there in front. I could also say when the man died, the magic died, the spell of forgetfulness was broken, in light of the more accurate picture of the past so many mysteries and odd conversations solved themselves, now i can begin to understand blah blah blah why my life is .

Yu kno, its really damn hard to say you're sorry too, when you cant remember or dont know whether traumatic events occurred to one's self, and others. how to make something right when there is nothing to memory, or no one to say what was wrong?

What you said... It is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation. i... uhh... nevermind... go for it, i aint afraid of ghosts

and btw... F U Dragonsigh... yeah i know you real good, cant lie to me, ever... coz yer... uh huh... jerk, im way too nice to me eh.

missed you all, much love ('cept for dragonsigh, cant seem to get rid of him)
thank you... and sorry for... hmmm, well pretty sure there's something if not... wait a few minits
glad you're still here

and in the spirit of Carnac the magnificent, for your entertainment only, The answer to the first question that came to your mind is simply this... yes.

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#8
HerLostHorse wrote:
Sun Aug 04, 2019 5:43 pm
Red Violet 3 wrote:
Thu Dec 21, 2017 7:54 pm
Dragonsigh wrote:
Mon Dec 18, 2017 5:26 pm
Very Nice!
I couldn't be asked to disagree to disagree more. Thank you.

i will add though, your words sparked a moment of clear viewing for me also.
Last year I was able to view the beginning of Soul consciousness dividing itself in order to know itself in the reflections of itself, which are ourselves and everything else in existence.

i see now how one of those facets of Soul experiencing our world could have learned to influence the building blocks of physical life, further dividing itself into more and more reflections of itself that experience the physical form of life.

A single cell individual learns to harmonize with soul again by experiencing it's life (becomes enlightened), taking and giving the way every creature does, in doing so soul consciousness expands and evolves to eventually incarnate as more complex patterns of conscious awareness.

The first lessons of prey meeting ruthless predator, I can totally see how this leaves a mark on the soul frequency, and changes how our bodies become expressed in our offspring. I can see it almost like harmonic chords becoming more and more complex with the passing and rebirth of each generation.

I wonder if this goes as far as to change our perceptual realities. At one time I think most people could be certain that others around them were experiencing the same feelings and similar thoughts, but with these traumas, programming and individualized reactions i dont think anyone can ever be certain without direct and specific communication. i have experienced the terror of knowing the true meaning of another man's words while others present are enthralled with adoration. And perhaps a similar divergence of perceptual connection with when a person meets the love of their life and finds out there is childhood trauma preventing the natural/programmed flow of the relationship... and first dates that end horribly for no apparent reason after one person is triggered by something otherwise normal to others. One person in love and the other frightened of harm no matter what is said or done to express love.

Resentments do hold people down, it's a cruel cycle of shame and shamelessness. If we allow ourselves to be preyed upon we feel shame for being the prey when it is the predator acting shameless, we in turn act shamelessly and doing so take on the shame of the predator as our own until we accept responsibility for our own actions and allow others their own freedom too.

When i got that stuff sorted out then i was able to start breaking negative cycles of behaviour. i'm not perfect (bahahaha) I still get frustrated angry and feel sorry for myself, but I know the mane problem is my pride getting in the way of me being a lion... stubborn and stuff like that,
I fully agree with everything you have said in here. I dont have much to add really.
Our perceptions are usually individual. I guess some perceptions are collective too; this would allow the world to exist. But we usually perceive our life on an individual level, based on our mental programming. It is usually not about the other person, about what the other said. It is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation. This is directly affected by our mental programming. We base our perceptions on past experiences and memories. Animals do this too. So because of this, a trauma or an unresolved mark, will have an affect on our life. A powerful effect. However, we can consciously reprogram ourselves.
How lovely, almost feels like returning home from a long journey. Nothing has changed, yet everything is renewed.

i'd like to mention false memories and erased memories/amnesia. These changes of information contained in the brain alter perception too. It's difficult to make successful decisions in life when we lack the knowledge to assemble an accurate picture of the past and present.
If ive lost one bit of my past, how can i know my true relationships and situation in the present moments? however, knowing the full truth about these social pressures can also force an uncomfortable bout of amnesia too.

If i can't see the true present, how can accurate planning occur? Bad decisions and poor choices lead to more traumas, and with that lack of knowledge i wonder that we can be held down to running in endless circles of pain and poor decisions.

I'm very curious now. something happened recently when the eldest in our family died, memories of the past returned.

PerceIt is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation.ption-wise, it was as if a bright light glaring in the eyes went out so one can see what is right there in front. I could also say when the man died, the magic died, the spell of forgetfulness was broken, in light of the more accurate picture of the past so many mysteries and odd conversations solved themselves, now i can begin to understand blah blah blah why my life is .

Yu kno, its really damn hard to say you're sorry too, when you cant remember or dont know whether traumatic events occurred to one's self, and others. how to make something right when there is nothing to memory, or no one to say what was wrong?

What you said... It is usually about how it affected us and how we reacted to whatever situation. i... uhh... nevermind... go for it, i aint afraid of ghosts

and btw... F U Dragonsigh... yeah i know you real good, cant lie to me, ever... coz yer... uh huh... jerk, im way too nice to me eh.

missed you all, much love ('cept for dragonsigh, cant seem to get rid of him)
thank you... and sorry for... hmmm, well pretty sure there's something if not... wait a few minits
glad you're still here

and in the spirit of Carnac the magnificent, for your entertainment only, The answer to the first question that came to your mind is simply this... yes.
It is always nice to see you around here :)

I think one of life´s most important lessons is forgiveness. It goes with acceptance of self and others.
The idea that sustains this, is that no one is perfect and we all make or made mistakes. The idea of superiority is delusional as we are all unique and living our journey.
When these ideas are understood, then forgiveness happens as a natural process, leaving more room for peace and joy.

It is up to us to forgive and to let go. It is a personal process even if the cause for the trauma is external.

I have a personal theory... I believe when a Soul is ready to "jump" to a new level of consciousness, It needs to learn these lessons of forgiveness, acceptance and connection. Too many, actually the greatest majority of human souls are living disconnected from the most pure and basic ethics. Too stuck in mundane selfishness.

It requires effort and a process to become a conscious and compassionate Soul.

Have you ever wondered how come that some of the most benevolent and developed people come from a disturbing family or past? I think that in many cases these were souls who were ready to jump to a new level of consciousness and awareness and needed certain experiences that would help them evolve faster. Of course this is not always the case as there are also people who fall into and/or stay stuck in division and resentment.

Life lessons are not always easy but generally are what we need to grow.

Once the Soul is able to understand, to forgive and to let go, the Soul is actually liberating itself from the human cage and madness.

But this process requires full awareness and acceptance of one self and of the life that is being lived. We are both the Light and the darkness and eventually must learn to accept that instead of living in denial, pretending we are perfect or above others. Pretending there is nothing for us to improve while at the same time judging others in fear.

The Ying Yang symbol can show us... Darkness leads to Light; it tiggers evolution. It is not separate from the Light, it rather complements it in a way. It is not a good idea to stay stuck in darkness but to use it for evolution.

Just my thoughts here. Nothing set on stone of course.

Cheers to you :)

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#9
Red Violet 3 wrote:
Wed Aug 07, 2019 4:36 am

It is always nice to see you around here :)

I think one of life´s most important lessons is forgiveness. It goes with acceptance of self and others.
The idea that sustains this, is that no one is perfect and we all make or made mistakes. The idea of superiority is delusional as we are all unique and living our journey.
When these ideas are understood, then forgiveness happens as a natural process, leaving more room for peace and joy.

It is up to us to forgive and to let go. It is a personal process even if the cause for the trauma is external.

I have a personal theory... I believe when a Soul is ready to "jump" to a new level of consciousness, It needs to learn these lessons of forgiveness, acceptance and connection. Too many, actually the greatest majority of human souls are living disconnected from the most pure and basic ethics. Too stuck in mundane selfishness.

It requires effort and a process to become a conscious and compassionate Soul.

Have you ever wondered how come that some of the most benevolent and developed people come from a disturbing family or past? I think that in many cases these were souls who were ready to jump to a new level of consciousness and awareness and needed certain experiences that would help them evolve faster. Of course this is not always the case as there are also people who fall into and/or stay stuck in division and resentment.

Life lessons are not always easy but generally are what we need to grow.

Once the Soul is able to understand, to forgive and to let go, the Soul is actually liberating itself from the human cage and madness.

But this process requires full awareness and acceptance of one self and of the life that is being lived. We are both the Light and the darkness and eventually must learn to accept that instead of living in denial, pretending we are perfect or above others. Pretending there is nothing for us to improve while at the same time judging others in fear.

The Ying Yang symbol can show us... Darkness leads to Light; it tiggers evolution. It is not separate from the Light, it rather complements it in a way. It is not a good idea to stay stuck in darkness but to use it for evolution.

Just my thoughts here. Nothing set on stone of course.

Cheers to you :)
Red violet!!! Yes!! Cheers! Please do, celebrate this day with me, a victory i have worked endlessly towards.

And You... the words and meanings that you... Magnificence!!!

Ive watched you grow here too, i consider it an honour, and especially today to see you publish the words that i have waited so long for you to say. The truth of light becomes you well, and i will keep faithful my unconditional offer of goodwill and support to you, darkness and all.
Today your words leap from the page to eat away a grey cloud forming around my accomplishment. i have nothing to express the range of emotion placed on my palette today. What i have struggled so hard within to find, i have at last found!!! I'm Free!!! Exactly as you said above!!
it means <tears> ... that i can move forward again towards acceptance of the present moment, and soon i will be able to shift my attentions towards the future without a care of past hurtins, nor any expectations of what the future outcomes might be. I dont have to look at the empty hole in my past and not know... not any more!!! The most important and cherished things i ever needed to know... such joy and sorrow mingled... yes, i can do this, and even more surely Dear friend if you will walk even just a few more paces beside me as you have already, your patient care and attention has always been a great healing force that i respect

next step, i'll be sorting out the knotted emotions to their proper places, feeling them and knowing until they resolve. Then, i'll begin to set right some incorrect decisions and start the forgiveness flowing... the outlook for it is fair and good, considering... that some others have put me through far far worse burdens to bear... i forgave them too.

Excellent Day!!! its an Indigo Win!!

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#10
I apologize for my late reply Old Dragon

I really appreciate your kindness Old Dragon, thank you :)

Thank you for the understanding and support; it means a lot to me

You mean you have also found forgiveness and peace? :) This sounds great and I do wish you the forgiveness and the peace and happiness that come with it. I believe you are a good Soul who deserves it. Congrats! And cheers for the new times

I have been living a process for the last few years. It has been slow but meaningful for me.
Forgiveness can be tough; it is easy to hold on to resentments, specially with those who are closest to us. There are people who can be really toxic or/and evil and there are people who just made mistakes.

Usually everyone has some toxicity and have made mistakes.

In the end it is the strong desire of freedom and happiness what triggers forgiveness and letting go (when it has to be) for me. Do I want to live feeling bad about others? Or do I want to reach balance and happiness? But in my case, it is a process...

Right now there is too much chaos and division in humanity. Too much sickness and madness. People are finally starting to open their eyes.
I do think that after this division and chaos, we, humans (and animals), will reconnect again.

For now, cheers to you and good luck in your journey and feel free to talk to me any time you want :)

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#11
Awww... Red Violet...

Its me owing you a proper apology, I'm truly sorry for not being here as often as i wanted to.
The truth is... the past few years i felt that i couldn't offer the better parts of myself to you, and everyone else here, I'm grateful, always, for the light you shine, and with that said my feeling is that you (and every one) deserved something better from me than i could have given at the time.

And that, Dear Soul Woman, is something i really like about you,
that your words challenge me to inner growth and healing.
Blessings, You're not supposed to know the good that you do,
but i want you to know that in your way
You make things better.

I had to go so deep within myself to unlock truths i didn't want to believe, couldn't believe.

Cascades of unimaginable... inexpressable... truths. Core truths, about my life and the things that happened during childhood.

Yes, real forgiving is a process, and its so worth it to endure through to the end, That moment when you get okay with the world and its alright to feel good inside yourself again.

Its incredible, finding your inner child that still suffers and giving the kind of love and attention that was needed so long ago, to be able to heal today.

Thank you Soul Woman,
Whether you knew it or not,
Whether i knew it or not
i needed you
and you were there for me
if you need to know
its easy to see
Wise women
sow wise seeds
And they grow
in the Heart

Always.
Anytime.

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#12
it warms my heart to see you both having a close human relationship-
an exchange tying each others' spiritual shoe laces so to speak.
this is what its about to be human after all.
i hope this great vibe will grow and spread to others more and more
so we can all share and understand your insights and learning from
your perspectives
and the connections of others' too.
it helps everyone on their life journeys.
thank you

fantastic:)
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#13
And then the lights went out? <new banner>

how appropriate.

I love that quote from the movie Kingdom of Heaven. "there is only light"
https://youtu.be/Mpw1J2q_tVc

For me to say so, posting that link, its a challenge. You know me. You know it.
i think i aced out right there, even though its easier to construe my statement to mean something it doesn't.
Patience...

when in absolute darkness, become the light.

conversely... and i quote:

This is one way to be invisible
To simply become a small part of the night
Moving with the winds and shadows
doing what must be done
completely void of emotions
so that no one's mind can feel you
no one's heart can hear you.

no one... lol, muh names, and yes i can feel and hear you in any degree of darkness...

in all seriousness though, this needs to be said because... and i quote again:

Men are helpless
only when they see themselves as helpless.
The present is our only opportunity for power.
The passage of time controls
and bends all things
only when we believe in
the passage of time.
The future lived
is merely yet another
Now.


smile and wave... "... and we are here to ease them through the parts they can't conceal..."
https://youtu.be/ZvePPARYewg

I say dream the good dream, because the good dreams of others will entwine themselves with yours to become the waking reality.
If i could ask one favour of you all, dream well,
for me, because i cannot,
Only dark and muted, like clouds of smoke and mirrors,
imagination yes, vivid dreams no
clear vivid dreams waking or asleep to me are rare.
Why?
Trauma.
for me there is only one vivid dream now, waking normal every day reality (real or parallel), and if you know some of what i have experienced perceptually i know you'll understand how i can still be grateful for being the way i am.
chaos is chaos. order is order. no judgement.

There's more than just childhood trauma and how it affects us as adults. I need to point out that these traumas are, can also, be contrived to manipulate us as adults. I can't really go into this too far because it's of no interest to me to pursue, naturally, however, its an observation i've noted and perhaps can be useful as more truth and fact surfaces within societal networks... exploitation notwithstanding.

Never the less, Old Dragon doesn't need to prove anything about anything about anything. You know the drift there, non the less, stepping forward... to control the centre... to win... if ever i've said that i love or that i care i damned well meant it aabove anything else that could be said or occur situationally and it can't mean any more or less than how it is received and what is made of it in the receiver's mind.

Again, i quote <and suggest reading slowly and carefully> :

The benevolent warrior
understands the true scope and priorities
of warfare.

He first defends his country
the land that shelters and feeds him
the community that houses his family.

He next defends his family alone
the ones that turn to him for deliverance
the people who share his love.
He lastly defends himself.

In the giving of strength to protect
meaningful places
and loving faces
the * serves his own heart.


monarch... pheonix...
yeah, i know...

feels like my insides were just f#'d <effsharped>
someone i met here.
something wrong is happening...
been happening for a long time

idk.

my own experience looking back is that some of the traumas were deliberate and intentional by adults of various ages. Contemporary peers though, in teens and adulthood are the other half of the story.
Perhaps why adults cause trauma in children to elicit victim responses, for the next generation of capable abusers.

What i'm interested in are safe methods to discover conditioning patterns and undo the suggested response reactions.

This is incredibly difficult to write about, i dont WANT to, and i was somewhat hesitant to write the story Love a Thousand Miles Away.

is it so difficult to understand the connection between experiencing trauma and the ability to leave one's body or transitioning into a parallel reality (meaning same world but completely different experience of it)?

in my case, leaving my body perceptually is like an instinctual nature, i dont necessarily mean into alternative realities, i mean perceptually in the real-time world. Some experiences of my perceptual presence are recorded and corroborated.
I can heal.
i can harm.

Just the other day i thought i'd play a bit... waiting in line, stepped out so to speak and tapped a fellow behind me on the shoulder as i watched with waking eyes as well...
he was a little empathic and after a moment or two knew i had tapped him on the shoulder. He felt embarrassed that he looked the wrong way, thought he was more aware... lol.

well you know what they say, old age experience and treachery will always overcome youth strength and skill.

regardless, i'm just saying it really rips on my heart when someone i care about, especially an indigo, is being abused whether physically or psychically to the point of accusing and/or manipulating blame onto me for the intentions and devices of others.

There's nothing wrong, and everything right about victims discovering their own self assertiveness in healthy balanced ways, free of controlled responses and conditioning.

I wrote a few days ago in chat i think, that my heart pounded really hard in a moment of crystal clarity...
my heart doesn't pound for nothing in moments of perfect stillness, this is exactly what i seen in my vision of all the pain in peoples lives worldwide that needs to be healed... the subject matter of which i can only speak of my own lesser experiences because i know first hand some of the tremendous burdens carried by so many others in silent strength...

its a huge challenge and its not for me to say but may the end see the glory to those for whom rising above it all is worth the strength in their souls.

yeah,
pheonix,
come back
blazin as many
times as i have to

And Zarg,
you're not supposed to know that you have carried the candle that lights the way for the world,
right?
didn't hear it from me anyways... lol
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